soooo im back from robotics. didn't win the leadership award (figures), but we got into elims! at least we won a few matches, we haven't done this well in years.

and.. somehow, i don't feel great? it just makes me think.. the circumstances aren't always great, but what is it that others are doing that I'm not? am i just not working as hard as i should? ranking high is still really good, and i feel like I'm trying my best.. but could i try harder? it was still a great competition and i met some awesome people, i don't regret what i was able to accomplish.

(well. maybe just one thing. i wish i were better at interviews so i could've had a chance at that leadership award. the fact that my team believed in me and nominated me speaks volumes of how much trust they put in me; i know should've tried harder. i got most of the information i wanted to say out but i fear that the way i framed it wasn't good enough. i tried my best, but i'm a little disappointed in myself...)

enough of that, i don't really have time to complain, haha. that's just a little peer into the citrus mindset as of now. i'll work harder this year! trying to get back into the swing of drawing, maybe i'll post something soon